Learning about love is important for those of us who were abused as children, and confused love with hurt and pain. As an adult, I spent most of my life seeking what I thought was love with different men in the hopes of finding happiness in my life. I had quite a few similar life lessons that I refused to learn until now. These were lessons full of suffering and heart ache that were intended to help me find the self love that I lacked.
I associated hurt and pain with love for so long, and it translated to emotional and sexual desires. These desires were so strong that they attracted like a magnet into my life those who hurt and injured me. It was a compulsion that I could not stop or control. No matter what I did consciously by forcing myself to find better and healthier partners in my life, it did not stick for long. This was the result of not learning or experiencing healthy love early in my life.
All this changed when I began in earnest my emotional healing work after the rise of my Kundalini energy in March 2011. I share these techniques and methods on the tabs on top of my Blogsite Homepage. With each layer of my emotional wound that I healed, I began to realize that I am deserving of love, kindness, and compassion for myself. I realized that I projected my pain and hurt outwardly toward others as I was unable to handle or acknowledge that this was my own pain and hurt. These projections occurred with nearly every relationship in my life, and they drove away those I loved.
I am alone now learning that this love that I thought I felt for men in my life is really love that I have for myself. This yearning for love is the love I lacked from childhood, and that only I can give to myself on my journey to wholeness. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)