This past weekend of Reiki Master training provided the reflection I needed to focus on my spiritual healing journey forward. As I commune with others, I needed to decide if I am ready to begin my Reiki practice, and upon further reflection, I realized that I need to take more time to heal myself. It took me several days to figured this out.
As an emapth, I am able to feel others physical pains when I touch them. Recently, I have acquired others pain and continue to feel it after I stopped touching them. At first I thought I was taking on others physical pains, but upon further analysis, I believe my existing unresolved emotional pain was triggerd, and when that emotional pain was triggered, it manifested in physical pain. In other words, I have the same emotional pain within as the person whom I touched that is why I continue to feel this pain after I stop touching them.
This shows me that I have not sufficiently resolved the emotional pain within me to begin my Reiki practice. Reiki practice will force me to touch others and be within their energy fields for an hour or more. Therefore, I need to be sufficiently stabilized within my own emotional, physical, energetic, and astro bodies in order to properly do the healing for others. My motto is first heal thyself, then you will be able to heal others.
This also tells me that I still need to continue my current day job then as I am ready, begin to integrate my Reiki practice first as part-time then full-time. I also decided to move to another school as I have done all that I can in my current school in putting in place the system and structure to help sexually assaulted, physical abused, and sexually harassed victims. I am still overcoming my own fears of leaving these students, but there are good people here to carry on this work.
I still pray everyday for guidance so that I am doing the right thing for the students and coworkers I love. May you find your path forward. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)