There is a time during our spiritual journeys that we uncover our true reality we were unable to see before our awakening. This reality is finally finding out we are flawed, and filled with emotional pain. This does not make us unvaluable, but merely that it is the important acknowledgment of our problems to begin working toward changing ourselves for the better.
I first began to see my true reality as I observed those around me who unfortunately were very much like me. They were flawed in similar ways and were emotionally wounded in similar manners. I observed their defensiveness and feelings of hurt exposed for all the world to see. I called people like me,”the walking wounded.”
Every statement made by others hurt or offended me. I went home after every encounter to cry or rant about how I have been wronged and how I am terribly victimized. These were the types of people I attracted because this was who I was. When I repeatedly observed these traits in those I attracted, I realized this is who I am too. This realization really floored and shocked me, but it was the beginning of uncovering my true reality.
Now, I see myself in my true reality, and I still observe myself reverting to who I was, but I quickly acknowledge this and catch myself. Now, I acknowledge my own over-reactions due to my emotional wounds, and I forgive myself for my reactions. I am slowly, but steadily becoming a better version of myself through just this simply observing rather than reacting to my life circumstances. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)