When I saw this above meme, I realize it was speaking to me. For the past five years, I have been letting go of everything I have ever known or understood about my own life. It is a gradual process of releasing my ego’s identity and how I see myself. It is the Dark Night of the Soul as many describe on their spiritual journeys.
This awareness and recognition of who I was and my darkness within, gave me the vision and intention to change my life once and for all. Along the way, I had to leave my old negative patterns of behaviors and thinking, and leaving people, things and places behind in order to transform my own life.
I do not believe it is possible to keep your old life, and live a completely different new life. In my opinion, it is an illusion and fiction we tell ourselves so as to avoid doing the necessary hard and real emotional work in order to transform and heal.
I have observed many including Kundalini active individuals who exist through spiritual bypass. Please see my earlier post on “Awareness of Spiritual Bypass.” During spiritual bypass, they focus on intuitive powers and only on the spiritual light, experience ego inflation, avoid the darkness that is within each of us, or engaged in inappropriate or abusive behaviors convincing themselves that this is intended to help others. Unfortunately, a life changing or traumatic event in their lives will bring them back to their unresolved emotional issues as they have been operating in ego or smaller selves.
I have come to understand that Kundalini active individuals are no different than others. Although we have heightened intuitive abilities and have the ability to accerelerate our emotional healing, if we don’t raise our consciousness, release our egos, or confont the darkness within us, no healing will take place and our intuitive abilities may be used to harm others through manipulations by convincing ourselves that this is intended to help others.
I have been the victim of such spiritual abuse and have observed Kundalini active individuals engaged in sexual exploitation, sexual molestation, sexual assault, marital infidelity, and others boundary violations. I have since forgiven them for these trepasses. However, if you don’t use your gifts for good, you can lie to yourself and others by convincing yourself that these violations are to help and benefit others.
Our ego’s denial is a tricky thing, and we all fall prey to it. If we identify with ego, we will believe this denial. It is easier to just see the light within ourselves, but it is the darkness within that we must confront and transform before true light is possible. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)