One of the new experiences on my spiritual journey is becoming frequently the single dissenter in the room. The dissenter creates friction and conflict to make sure that the marginalized voices are heard. This dissenting voice creates discord and disharmony for many who just want consensus, and agreement.
This is what I have experienced since becoming kundalini active. Others don’t like me very well, and it is a new role that I am playing. In the past, I have always wanted to belong, and be accept by others. I realize now that belonging and acceptance by others is unnecessary and causes great suffering within me.
They are still moments that I recall being this person who wants to belong so badly. It is time to shed these old beliefs and behaviors, and it is time to move onto a new way of being. It is this letting go process that has caused me some angst.
I feel this internal struggle to move forward, but also this force that pulls me back.This internal struggle is the process through which I currently am going. I know in time that I will move forward onto my new path without ever looking back again. (Copyright 2019 awakening journey with all rights reserved)