After many years of life lessons on trust, I learned that trust is earned. No one deserves your trust without showing you that they are worthy of your trust. I learned this lesson the hard way. I trusted my parents who are untrustworthy as they subjected me and others to sexual, physical, and emotional abuse from a young age. Clearly, they are not worthy of my trust, but I never learned this hard life lesson until recently. Although I have forgiven them for their trespasses, I have not forgotten that they are capable of great harm.
This is the tough life lesson I learned. In order to move past my trauma, I must forgive those who hurts me, but I must never forget that they are unworthy of my trust. Since childhood, I allowed many people to violate, hurt, and abuse me. When I forgave them, I also forgot what they did to me, and allowed them back into my life. Forgiveness of those in our past does not mean they are now worthy of our trust, and will not hurt us again.
As I move forward on my journey, I am discerning who are trustworthy. I find most people hurt others unintentionally caused by the emotional pain and injuries from their past. Others, however, have shown to hurt people quite intentionally and deliberately, such as narcissists, pedifiles, sadists, etc. These individuals hurt others to satisfy their urges, desires, and impulses. The difficulties is discerning who’s who.
Trust is such an innocent and wonderful experience, but once the trust is breached then it is difficult to mend, and unlikely to repair. However, the one thing you can trust is faith in yourself and your journey forward. (2019 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)