About three years ago, I moved to California for a job at a university near my family. At first I thought I moved here for this job. I have since left that job, but I believe I moved here to resolve what still remains unresolved with my family.
During the past eight years since the rise of my kundalini energy, I have worked diligently to resolve within me the issues involving my parents. However since then, I have been struggling with unresolved issues involving my brother.
The issues have repeated with others who represent my brother at my job and in my personal life. Due to the childhood abuse we both suffered, I have felt responsible for saving my brother out of survivor’s guilt.
This is how I have enabled others to become dependent upon me. I create these codependent relationships that ultimately destroyed my relationships with them. This is what I am currently facing with my brother.
Recently, as I interact with my brother, I try not to interfere in his life even when he asks for help. I do not interfered, therefore forcing him to solve his own problems that he created.
Each time, I interact with my brother, I am cognizant of the dynamics between us. I step back, and am very deliberate in my responses to him. My knee-jerk responses based on guilt are beginning to fade away. I hope this is a new way of relating to my family. (Copyright 2019 awakening journey with all rights reserved)