I have been suffering with negative thoughts and physical ailments from my past, and have fallen back to old patterns of behaviors. This has come as a surprise to me as I wasn’t aware if I don’t practice mindfulness or being present regularly, that I will fall back to old patterns of thinking and behaving. I also realized that my “spiritual purpose” of helping traumatized college students really fed my ego although it began from a higher consciousness.
I am trying to get back on track for my spiritual life, and have been practicing Eckhart Tolle’s “How to Control Emotional Triggers.” For the first time in a while, I felt joy and lightness when I remained in the present moment. It felt beautiful and I cried as I remember this feeling from an earlier time, but I thought I had lost my way by being stuck in my old negative thoughts and feelings. However, I am happy to know that the enlightened path is never very far away when we seek this path, and I am so thankful for finding my way back.
I felt a deep level of inner peace and inner stillness today that I have not felt in a while. It is a beautiful place to reside instead of the chaotic thoughts and chatter of ego. This has given me renewed hope and energy to tackle the spiritual work ahead of me. I feel grateful and relieved to know that all things are possible when we strive for a higher consciousness. (Copyright 2019 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)