When the Lion Roars

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Today is my birthday, and I gave myself the best present one can give oneself.  I regained my power over my past, over my abuses, and by learning to protect my inner child. Here is my story.

As many of my readers know, I was abused as a child by my parents, and subsequently as an adult, I attracted and welcomed individuals who abused me. Yesterday, I was having dinner with a good friend for our respective birthdays.  After our server took a photo of us to commemorate this dinner,  I suddenly became faint, light-headed, and nauseous. Later, I realized that I experienced photo vertigo for the first time in my life.

When I returned home, a memory of my past involving an ex-boyfriend flashed into my head.  During this memory, I recalled Valentine’s Day with this man a couple of years ago.  During our Valentine’s Day dinner, we got into an argument about a past married girlfriend of his.  He became enraged during our dinner.

As I dropped him off at his home, there was a snowstorm that evening.  Because of the storm, I asked if I could stay overnight at his home.  He then stormed away from my car and told me to go home in the snowstorm.  The snowstorm had gotten so bad that I stayed in a hotel that night.

As I checked into the hotel, I texted him about my situation.  Not only did he not ask about my safety, he didn’t even respond.  This was the type of man I attracted into my life due to my past emotional injuries.  I chose him as my boyfriend, because I simply did not believe that I deserved any better treatment, or deserved love or protection.   Shortly after that incident, I broke things off with him, and now pray for him for his recovery.

This morning, I had a session with my massage therapist who also is a Reiki practitioner.  As we worked through a knee injury that I sustained last year, she explained that I had been keeping all my emotional pain and hurt in my knee chakra.  I also explained almost passing out at dinner last night with my friend from photo vertigo.

She is a intuitive healer who suggested that my photo vertigo may have been triggered by how my inner child had dealt with abuse. This reaction may have been my childhood ways of coping with abuse by leaving my physical body, since I have been recently working to release this emotional pain.

She was right that the photo vertigo incident triggered past memories of emotional abuse by this man as he also sexually assaulted me and gave me a sexually transmitted disease.  It was such a revelation about these recent events.

As we worked together, she facilitated the transmutation of this emotional pain into power energy to my solar plexus chakra.  I felt the energy moving through my major chakras into my heart chakra and out of my throat chakra.  It  also felt painful as this energy was being transmuted and released.  As I experienced this miracle, I began to cry from shear joy as did my therapist.

As we held each others’ hands, I knew that this was a watershed moment in my spiritual journey. This transmuting of my emotional pain into power through my power center or solar plexus chakra is nothing short of amazing.  I am freeing myself from the pain and emotional injuries stored within my physical body from many years of abuse.

On my birthday today,  I regained my power from victim to survivor.  I finally found love for my inner child and learned that I can protect her from harm.  I release my shame, hurt, and pain.  I believe that I deserve to be loved, protected, and honored for who I am.  Blessings and Namaste.  (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

 

Healing the Throat Chakra

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During some recent body work and Reiki energy work, I learned more about one of my earlier lifetimes.  About a year ago, I had a vision of an earlier lifetime when I lost my mother as a small Native American child.  In this vision, I watched a shaman trying to help my mother, but she died and I saw her spirit leave her body.  In this earlier lifetime, I was an Native American male, and saw that I was quite sickly.

In this recent vision, I was sitting over some type of smoke or steam with a blanket over my head as some form of medical treatment.  My Reiki practitioner working on me saw that I had an injury to my throat that caused me to be reclusive and also affected my hearing. I believe that this throat blockage is associated with the emotional pain of my mother’s death.

During my treatment with this Reiki practitioner, she told me that I currently have a throat chakra blockage from these past lifetime experiences. I have been working to remove this blockage for several months now as I continue to work to release those energy blockages through body work, Reiki, and crystals healing for my throat chakra.  As I release the blockages here, I will be better able to speak my truth and ask for what I want and need in my life.  May you find your voice to speak your truth. (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Healing Energy Cords

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In the energy body, we have cords of energy extending from our our chakras, and meridians.  When we have emotional wounds, they create injured cords extending from our energy fields that can attach to others who also are emotionally wounded.  I have recently come to understand how these cords work within our energy fields.

Many of us have emotional injuries connected to our solar plexus chakra.  The solar plexus chakra reflects emotional areas of self-esteem, self-image, energy, will, responsibility, and power. Emotional wounds resulting in blockages in the solar plexus chakra has to do with our basic relationship with our inner self caused by shame. The solar plexus chakra is located below the diaphragm, and connected to our astral body.

When we have emotional injuries related to this chakra, we can be easily controlled by others emotionally, energetically, or mentally.  However, it is possible to close the circuit of these injured cords so that others cannot attach or try to enter our energy fields through these injured areas. It is through our own emotional wounds that we attract others to our energy fields, and these unhealthy connections may result in more emotional injuries to ourselves.

I have used body work and imagery work to loosen energy cords and connect my injured energy cords to my heart chakra.  After the massage therapist loosened my injured cords, through imagery, I visualized my injured cords connecting to my heart chakra, thereby closing off these open cords.   I also have used crystals for healing and protecting my energy field.  Please see this LINK for the metaphysical healing properties of crystals and their usages.  Sending healing love and light. (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Learning to Love without Hurt

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For those of us who have suffered from childhood abuse, we learned to love through hurt, and as a result as adults, we are hard wired to love through this hurt.   When I awoke this morning, I realized that underneath my deepest love for another underlies a layer of anger and hurt, and I appear to be hard wired in this way.  As a result, I seek and feel attracted to those who I feel this deep love, but underlying this love is really anger and hurt.  Therefore, I always feel attracted and attract others who I feel this love, but who cause this anger and hurt within me. My failure to heal these wounds will cause me to repeat this with different people in my life as that is how the Universal Law of Attraction works.

Through my body work, and Reiki energy work yesterday, I was able to feel this deep layer of anger and hurt as the therapist moved my energy around in my chakras and energy field.  As I let go of this pain like wispy clouds into the sky, my field began to lighten, and when I awoke this morning, I was filled with lightness and peace.  This layer of anger is from the hurt I experienced as a child, and the later as an adult, and my goal for most of life is to let it go.

As I have been healing more and more recently with the help of catalysts, who are Kundalini active that appear to be good catalysts, I realize who they are as they remind me of my past, and took this opportunity to heal this hurt within me as they brought me this awareness.  When I am able to live without this hurt in my life all the time, that I was able to achieve yesterday during my Reiki energy work, I will no longer love through this anger and hurt, and will attract healthier relationships into my life.  May you find healing in your life, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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Connecting with Our Divine Self

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I returned to the massage therapist and intuitive healer that I went to a couple of weeks ago to receive another treatment. This treatment involved body work and Reiki energy work.  I asked her to read my energy field to help me remove any blockages.  During her initial read of my field she felt that I had some root chakra clearing that I needed to do, and began to work around my feet and legs.

Then we began working on releasing the heart and lung fascia or a structure of connective tissue that surrounds muscles, groups of muscles, blood vessels, and nerves.  In doing this, she synchronized my breathing while putting pressure around one lung then the other with her hands, and we did some imagery work to soften the fascia around my heart. She guided me to let go of my baggage from childhood wounds, and suggested that I can be free of my past.

After completing this, we began the energy work where she guided me through breathing and using her hands to move the energy around my energy field and chakras.  As we did this, my heart, throat, third eye, solar plexus, and sacral chakras began to vibrate at a low hum.  Within a few minutes, my energy went all the way to the root chakra.  As this occurred, I felt all the chakras vibration at the same time, making almost like a chiming sound in my head.

This energetic vibration of the chakras made a circuit in my energy field that connected at my crown chakra as the male and female energy circuits connected. I have felt this male and female circuit connect before after my Kundalini energy rose. Then I saw her, this incredible brilliant light that radiated from my crown, and my Divine self stood in this light. She is beautiful, and I realized that she is my true self.  She is whole, and all that I dreamed is possible for myself.

I began to cry as I was so moved to see her, and be in her presence, all the while my chakras were chiming away like church bells.  This moment was a true spiritual moment, filled with overwhelming feelings of light and love, like touching the Divine.  During this time, the massage therapist was in my energy field with me sharing this love and light, and she seemed to want to stay a while longer.

When we finished the session, I asked the therapist what blockages she felt in my chakras and field.  She said there were none that is why the circuit completed within my field, and I had this incredible moving spiritual experience.  She said that I can clear all my chakras and energy field, and that I always have the choice to carry my emotional baggage around or let it go, that enabled me to have this experience.

I plan to return to her for more chakra clearing and Reiki energy work as she truly is a gifted healer. May you find healing and connect with your Divine self, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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