Steps to Healing Past Emotional Pain


During these past few months, I have been confronted with some deep seeded distrust as a result of my childhood abuse by and a philandering father.  As an adult, I attracted men like my father into my life causing more emotional injury and trauma to my life.   This has translated into distrust of men that is deeply ingrained within me.  These past emotional injuries resulted in deep blockages within my sacral and heart chakras.  In my attempts to unblock these chakras, I have tried the following methods:

  • Letting go what you can’t control and letting go of past emotions and behaviors through intention, belief, and actions
  • Awareness of triggering thoughts, events, and statements by simply observing them without reaction
  • Acknowledge your fears through stating them out loud or writing them down
  • Forgive yourself and others for past mistakes and failures by accepting your past
  • Learning to love yourself through self care, setting healthy boundaries with others, and nurturing yourself

At the root of distrust is the lack of self love and fear.  When we fear betrayal and being hurt again, we have not forgiven ourselves and others for injuring us.  We have not learned to love ourselves through setting clear and healthy boundaries with others, and taking responsibility for and control of our actions that are forms of self love.

When we learn to let go of the past through clear intentions that we no longer want certain emotions and behaviors in our lives, we follow up with the belief that we can and will change them, then follow through with consistent change in our actions.  Good luck with healing your past emotional pain. (Copyright 2017 with All Rights Reserved)


Sacral Chakra Healing


My biggest hurdle is my jealousy from a sacral chakra blockage caused by childhood sexual abuse.  This abuse began at the age of eight years old by my father creating an unhealthy triangulation between my father, my mother, and me.  My father also had many sexual and romantic partners while married to my mother.  My jealousy has to do with distrust of men, and feeling unworthy due to my relationship with my father.

Recently, I have felt pain and discomfort in my sacral chakra area, and suffer an urinary track infection.  When we have blockages within our chakras, we are more likely to experience physical problems and illnesses in that region of the body.  Although I am treating my symptoms with antibiotics, I must clear this deep and stubborn blockage in this chakra.

These blockages occur in many layers of pain and emotional wounds. I already have removed some of these deep and stubborn layers, but I still must work deeper and deeper to clear the remaining blockages.  I us the following six techniques:

1) Creative practice (Dance, art, music, singing, etc.)

2) Exercise, particularly in nature

3) Hip opening yoga postures

4) Crystal healing

5)  Throat chakra opening and clearing

6)  Learning to let go of your past through Emotional Release Practice

Good luck with your sacral chakra clearing and healing journey. Sending blessings of love!  (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

Healing the Root Chakra

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The Muladhara or root chakra rests at the base of spine, and the seat of Kundalini.  The central issues for root chakra blockage involves survival, stability, acceptance, self-preservation, deep-rootedness, perception, grounding, fear and safety.   The problems rest in the physical body involving self-preservation caused by fear usually resulting in issues during developmental stages from womb to 12 months.  These blockages may be caused by traumas and abuses, including, birth trauma, abandonment, physical neglect, poor physical bonding with the mother, malnourishment, feeding difficulty, major illness or surgery, physical abuse, inherited traumas (eg. war, poverty, etc.)

The sexual and adrenal hormonal glands may be affected as well as, organs in the immune system, base of spine, legs, bones and bone marrow, feet, rectum, and physical body support.  Physical dysfunction from blockage in the root chakra may include frequent illness, disorders of the bowel, large intestine, bones, teeth, problems with legs, feet, base of spine(chronic lower back pain, sciatica), eating disorders, depression; immune-related disorders, skin problems, and lack of energy.  Those with this charka blockage may suffer addiction involving food, gambling, shopping, and work.  Spiritual challenged for root chakra blockage, involves how well we manage our physical world.

Excessive energy in the root chakra can cause individuals to become sluggish, lazy, tired, monotony, obesity, overeating, hoarding, materialism, greed, fear of change, and addiction to security.  Deficient energy in the root chakra causes individuals to become fearful, anxious, restless, lack of discipline, underweight, financial difficulty, and chronic disorganization. While balanced energy in the root chakra should result in  good health, vitality, well grounded, sense of trust in the world, feeling safe and secure, stability, prosperity, and ability to relax.

Healing strategy for the root chakra includes physical activity, lots of touch, massage, reconnect with the body, grounding, Hatha yoga, look at earliest childhood relationship to mother, and reclaim your right to be here.  The use of essential oil such as patchouli, cedarwood, or sandalwood may also help.  Crystal healing using Garnet, Ruby, Agate, Onyx, Haematite, Red Jasper, Black Tourmaline, Smoky Quartz, Bloodstone, and Red Coral is another option.

Affirmations that may be helpful in healing the root chrakra:

It is safe for me to be here.

The earth supports me and meets my needs.

I love my body and trust its wisdom.

I am interested in abundance.

I am here and I am real.

I trust my Higher Self to fulfill all my needs.

My life is full of prosperity.

(Photo Image:  Rainbow Spider Woman, Giclee’ by Sheranda Ann Kumara)

Facing My Truth

tumblr_lh7it1UHSu1qcac66o1_400_largeThis is has been a period of reflection of what still remains unhealed in my emotional landscape.  What I have found is not always what I am happy to uncover.  Within my landscape still remains fear of trust, fear of being hurt, and fear of rejection.  These are all emotions that humans feel, but for me, it has triggered anxiety and panic in my relationships.  My instinct is to run away from my fears, and they appear to just return with the next relationship and so on, and so on.  But this is my emotional landscape and what I must come to accept and overcome.

In the last few days, I began to face my past fears.  I vowed to change my life so I can have healthier and more loving relationships, and I wish for this with every ounce of my being.   I know deep in my heart that this is possible for me, and I can envision a very different life for myself where I am trusting, loving, and living without fear.  When I awoke yesterday after a night of energetic releases, a blockage in my sacral/root chakra dissolve. I  felt completely differently the next morning where I felt lighter, freer, and less burdened.

My past of feeling unworthy and unlovable began to fall away, and my fears of rejection and being hurt again also began to dissipate.  I realized that my emotional responses to others has little to do with others and more to do with what still remains unhealed within my emotional landscape.  If I feel slighted by another, it is because I feel unworthy within.  If I feel that I can’t trust my loved ones, it is because I fear being hurt or rejection.

It is coming to this realization that we are able to move forward and heal our emotional wounds in order to have a different life.  The first step to emotional recovery is recognizing what is still unhealed within ourselves, then we can do the hard work of confronting and healing those past wounds.  (Copyright 2015 Living Wide Awake with All Rights Reserved)

Unlearning of Fear


Recently, someone was sent into my life to show me something about myself.  What was reflected back to me was something I don’t like much about myself.  I have struggled with jealousy, co-dependency, poor boundaries, and possessiveness for most of my soul, and I know it originates from my heart chakra blockage likely from emotional injuries to the heart over many lifetimes.

I believe this person was sent to me to show me this part of myself.  I appear to do fine with those I don’t have a great attachment,  but for those I feel very attached, this becomes a big problem for me.  She was my Reiki practitioner, but she began to become enmeshed in my life by asking about my personal interactions with others, wanting to get together outside of our sessions, and wanting more than a practitioner/client relationship.

First, let me say that she is a wonderful and talented practitioner of Reiki and bodywork, but she lacks proper boundaries, and is a co-dependent like me. She became quite jealous and possessive when she found out that I am working with others for my spiritual and healing work, and demanded to know if I intend to continue with them. This is when I decided to terminate my work with her, and began seeking another Reiki practitioner.

After this experience, I realize that I too drive away those who care for me by my jealous and possessive behavior. It is caused by fear of loosing those I love, but ironically, the result is exactly what I fear that is I drive away those I love, and I loose them anyway.  Our fear is our worst enemy, as what we fear most will likely happened as that is what the fear will attract under the Universal Law of Attraction. (Copyright 2014 Living Wide Awake with All Rights Reserved)

Healing the Heart


For the last few weeks, I have been in the process of unblocking a heart blockage in the center of my heart chakra.  This blockage is from years and maybe even lifetimes of heartbreak, betrayal, and abuse.  I have been living with a broken heart from those I have attracted throughout lifetimes who betrayed, abandoned, and abused me. It is now time for me to heal all this pain in my heart.

For several years now, I have been practicing “Emotional Release Practice” found at this tab on my Blogsite Homepage.  In combination now, I am using Reiki, body work, crystal healing, music therapy, and yoga to heal my heart chakra.  My Reiki and body work are done with a certified practitioner and an intuitive healer.  I use rose quartz and emerald, and a combination of other crystals for energy balancing and protection. I am taking guitar and voice lessons that also help with transmuting my vibrational frequency as music resonates in frequencies.  Finally, I use yoga for grounding and stabilizing my daily energy level.

A friend also shared a program of removing blockage, and grounding through energy enhancement practice that I only am beginning to practice recently.  With all of these practices, I hope to clear most of my energy blockages and heal my emotional wounds in this lifetime.  Until we heal our hearts, we are unable to love ourselves fully, nor are we able to truly give love to others.  May you find healing in your life. (Copyright 2014 Living Wide Awake with All Rights Reserved)



Healing through Grace


I am experiencing what I believe to be the second major shift in my Kundalini life after the recent solar eclipse and the Divine union of my masculine and feminine energies. During the first shift, I left my marriage, changed careers, left the town I lived in, and left most of my friends. This shift will cause me to change my life dramatically again for the second time since the rise of my Kundalini in March 2011.

If you follow my blog then you know that grounding our Kundalini energy through methods discussed in “Stabilizing Kundalini Energy” found at the tab on my Blogsite Homepage is the first step to stabilizing our Kundalini energy. The next and more important step to permanently stabilize our Kundalini energy is to heal our past emotional wounds needed to clear our chakras and energy body of blockages, through “Observing Ego Practice” to cope with fears brought up by the healing process, and “Emotional Release Practice” to help heal past emotional pain, both found at these tabs on my Blogsite Homepage.

As I have been diligently healing my past emotional wounds for three and half years, I have worked through many of my emotional issues within my current lifetime. Please see the “Kundalini Recovery Process” tab on my Blogsite Homepage for the steps of the Kundalini recovery process. However, our painbody within our energy body stores emotional pain from our previous lifetimes as well. I am now working through emotional pain from my past lifetimes with my Reiki practitioner.

During our session today, we worked through one past lifetime, when I was male, and my mother die when I was young. As I was not raised in the safety of my mother, I was very sickly with some form of throat disease or injury, and felt very weak as a man. This explains my feeling of powerlessness in this lifetime. Today, I worked through my throat and heart chakra blockages caused by this physical injury and the distrust in my heart resulting from being raised by others as I did not have my mother to protect me. Ironically, in later lifetimes, I attracted mothers who were unable or unwilling to protect me.

As I concluded my Reiki session today, my practitioner said, we have done everything that you and I can do, now we must allow grace to take over to heal the rest and help in your shift to the next phase of your Kundalini life. With patience, I await my transition through grace. (Copyright 2014 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

Healing the Throat Chakra


During some recent body work and Reiki energy work, I learned more about one of my earlier lifetimes.  About a year ago, I had a vision of an earlier lifetime when I lost my mother as a small Native American child.  In this vision, I watched a shaman trying to help my mother, but she died and I saw her spirit leave her body.  In this earlier lifetime, I was an Native American male, and saw that I was quite sickly.

In this recent vision, I was sitting over some type of smoke or steam with a blanket over my head as some form of medical treatment.  My Reiki practitioner working on me saw that I had an injury to my throat that caused me to be reclusive and also affected my hearing. I believe that this throat blockage is associated with the emotional pain of my mother’s death.

During my treatment with this Reiki practitioner, she told me that I currently have a throat chakra blockage from these past lifetime experiences. I have been working to remove this blockage for several months now as I continue to work to release those energy blockages through body work, Reiki, and crystals healing for my throat chakra.  As I release the blockages here, I will be better able to speak my truth and ask for what I want and need in my life.  May you find your voice to speak your truth. (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)