My biggest hurdle is my jealousy from a sacral chakra blockage caused by childhood sexual abuse. This abuse began at the age of eight years old by my father creating an unhealthy triangulation between my father, my mother, and me. My father also had many sexual and romantic partners while married to my mother. My jealousy has to do with distrust of men, and feeling unworthy due to my relationship with my father.
Recently, I have felt pain and discomfort in my sacral chakra area, and suffer an urinary track infection. When we have blockages within our chakras, we are more likely to experience physical problems and illnesses in that region of the body. Although I am treating my symptoms with antibiotics, I must clear this deep and stubborn blockage in this chakra.
These blockages occur in many layers of pain and emotional wounds. I already have removed some of these deep and stubborn layers, but I still must work deeper and deeper to clear the remaining blockages. I us the following six techniques:
1) Creative practice (Dance, art, music, singing, etc.)
As some of you may know, I am an amateur artist in that I don’t sell my art work professionally. My interest in art began as a form of emotional healing and art therapy. It has helped me tremendously to tap into my right brain where I believe emotional healing can take place. As I delve deeper into art, I have met many artist friends, and in fact, about a third of my friends on Facebook are artists.
As I study art, I find so many famous artists are troubled human beings. They are drug addicts, alcoholics, philanders, and many are bipolar and suicidal. Many are self-centered people, egomaniacs, and narcissists. These artists include Jackson Pollack, Picasso, Rodin, Salvador Dali, Georgia O’Keef, Vincent Van Gogh, just to name a few of the world renowned ones. I have included an article, about why this is, called Creative Madness.
People frequently confuse the artist with their art work. I have learned that there is a big difference between the art and the artist. We can appreciate their art, but not necessarily the artist. We do not necessarily want to emulate the narcissistic behaviors of the artist, but only the creativity and beauty of their art work. That is what I am striving for and believe that we can create beautiful art but we don’t need to be addicts, philanders, and suicidal to be artists.
Narcissistic or egomaniacal behaviors are choices they make, and it is not inherent in being an artist. Regrettably, many great artists end up dead from addictions or suicides. How sad is that? Make art, but also make a good life for yourself as an artist without addiction, philandering, and living in self destruction. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
In the past week, I spent the week at the Appalachian Center for Crafts at a class on flameworking as demonstrated in the above photo. This class was a glass process class that is to learn how glass works rather than just learning to make objects. A big part of glassblowing whether in a furnace or on a torch is learning to control the heat on the glass.
By the end of the class, I began to intuitively figure out how to solve problems I was having with the glass making process on the torch. This is similar to my spiritual journey when I need to problem solve issues in my daily life. How do I go about overcoming difficulties in my life? How do I resolve conflicts with others? Why do I react to different people differently? How do I move forward on my spiritual path?
The process of life is no different than solving any other problems whether in creating art, at our jobs, or in our relationships. The key to all problem solving is learning the basic skills necessary than using intuition, deductive reasoning, and common sense to figure out the solution. May you find the solutions to your life issues. (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)
This week, I am taking a Flameworking class or blowing glass on a torch with a teacher who is the guru of flameworking. He believes in learning the process of flameworking, and not on the end result or the final artwork. This is why I decided to take a class with him, as he believes that every student of his will learn how to flamework, and take these critical skills home with them. In fact, I do not expect to make any artwork at all this week, but will practice all the techniques he teaches, so I can produce my own artwork when I return home.
My spiritual path is this way as well, as I will falter one day, and succeed another. It is practicing diligently everyday what I write about on this blog, knowing that I may not always do the right thing on some days, and on other days, I am practicing compassion, kindness, self awareness, self love, releasing ego, and healing my emotional wounds. My glass art path has mirrored my spiritual path as I began both around the same time.
It has taken me many years to have awareness about my spiritual journey, as I am also becoming a more aware glass artist in my craft. This week is when my spiritual path and my artistic path converge again after almost four years when they first began. I have grown so much in both areas of my life, and as my flameworking teacher says, “With glass there is only one direction, that is forward.” Blessings on your journey forward. (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)
This week, I am taking a glassblowing class called Flameworking that is blowing glass on a torch at the Appalachian Center for Crafts. During our first class, we were asked to introduce ourselves and discuss why we are taking this class. I recounted my first encounter with glassblowing in 2010 that I believed I had my first past life memory while hot glassblowing, also called furnace glassblowing.
In 2010, I decided to try glassblowing as I had always been attracted to glass after taking stained glass classes. During my first encounter with glassblowing while standing in front of the glory hole, or a furnace to reheat glass to soften it in order to manipulate it, I had a distinct memory of doing this before. During this memory, I recalled turning the pipe in the glory hole and recalled how to center the glass on the blow pipe. Many of the techniques of glassblowing came very naturally to me, and I believe I may have done this during a past life.
Glass is very sensual and feminine, as it is fluid in its molten state, and curves in shape in its solid state. When creating in glass, it is through feel and the right brain that give us the most success. When we create in glass, we co-create with glass as it is through a connection with the glass that translates to artistic expression. When we create through glass, it is connecting with the feminine and finding our own Divine Feminine within. When we connect with her, we also are able to express in this artistic form.
My spiritual growth can be seen through my growth as a glass artist. With each class and more in depth exploration into this medium, I also am maturing spiritually as a person. May you find spiritual growth through your artistic expression. Infinite love and peace. (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)
This week has been an exciting week of glassblowing in a week long intensive class with others who also love glass, and it’s a great feeling of camaraderie with others. I have made friends and learned many great skills. I learned a lot about myself this week that I can work well with others, that I can go with the flow of things, and I can face criticism and not take it personally.
Glassblowing is the perfect metaphor for the spiritual path. We do not get too attached to any piece of art work because we can lose it instantly without warning. When we lose our work, we try again and try to do it better. We learn from our mistakes instantly because it is necessary in the success of completing a piece of glass art work.
As I watch myself grow as a glassblower, I am learning lessons just like in my spiritual work. Every mistake is a lesson I learn that makes me a better glassblower. Every failure is the stepping stone to my next stage of my artistic growth. Every effort I make whether technically or artistically is a way to learn something new and important about myself in this art form.
I feel extremely blessed to be able to do this form of art work, and as I proceed in my growth as a glass artist, I also grow spiritually as a person. May you find these blessings in your life, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)