Loving Fearlessly


When we live without fear, we are able to love fearlessly.  After five years of emotional healing and spiritual work, I finally learned to love fearlessly.  My fears of abandonment, being unloveable, and rejection are in my past, and I am living a different life now.

Recently, when I went through a box of old journals and notebooks, I found a page written in early 2013 about reading some books on Abraham Hicks on the law of attraction, and learning to energetically aligning with what we want.  Essentially, we energetically become what we want to attract.

Our aura or energetic frequency is composed of our emotional and mental vibrations.  Trauma, negative experiences, and emotional injuries create a certain vibration which attracts similar vibrations.  Many will meet or attract those who continue to abuse, hurt, and injure them, and cannot understand why this is happening as I did for a long time.

In this journal on this page, I found a list of things I wrote that I want in my life, including a loving, honest, and loyal relationship, a fulfilling and satisfying career, and my own healing and becoming my higher self. As I reflected on these words, I realize that I have received all that I asked for.

These miracles of finding my soulmate, finding a fulfilling job at a university where I am helping many students, and internal peace and love for myself are the results of changing my energetic frequency to attract what I want.  May you heal and attract what you want. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved).

Mirror, Mirror


Have you ever wondered why you attract unsuitable partners and drama-filled friends into your life?  How many times have you said to yourself, why did I marry this person or date that person?  Why are my friends constantly in conflicts and involved in drama in their lives?  The answer is very simple.  It’s called chemistry, or we know it as energetic frequency in the spiritual community.

Everyone is fully aware of this phenomenom called chemistry.  It is why we are attracted to certain people and not others.  We like certain people and dislike other people.  Most of the time, we don’t really know exactly why this is only upon a brief meeting with another.

The explanation is quite simple, but many have difficulties accepting this.   We attract what we are, that is we attract those at the same vibrational frequency as us.  This causes the chemistry between two people.  If we vibrate at a different frequency than another, then we feel a dissonance or discord within our energy fields, and the result is repulsion or dislike of another.  It is simple quantum physics.

Over the course of human evolution, our egos have developed a protective mechanism of sorts to protect us from seeing the true realities about ourselves.  Our egos feed us information about ourselves that do not accurately reflect who we really are, also known as self perception.  For example, sex offenders and murders continue to offend because their egos justify their decisions, actions and habituated behaviors to allow them to continue, sometimes with more frequency and severity.

In extreme cases, it is called psychosis, delusion, or mental disorder.  However, everyone exhibits this phenomenon to some degree. So how do we truly see who we really are?  We observe those who we attract into our lives, and who they are as our egos are able to see others very accurately and precisely.  Observe who your partners and friends are.

In the course of my life, I was attracted, for most of my current life and previous lifetimes, to men who are sexual predators, philanders, cheaters, liars, and some were violent. I attracted women who are mentally ill and emotional unstable.  This told me quite a lot about myself who suffered from sexual and physical abuse from childhood by my father, and grew up with a mentally ill and undiagnosed mother.

I began to observe that there was something seriously wrong in my life after I left home and attended college.  In college, I began psychotherapy to help me figure out what was wrong in my life.  Through my recovery, I tried to overcome my attraction to abusive, predatory, and sometimes violent men.   In an attempt to overcome my problems, I married a very kind, honest, and devoted man, but I found him boring, unexciting, and had no chemistry with him.

This marriage did not survive because I again became attracted to abusive, predatory, and even violent men.  Even my intentional attempt to change my circumstances, I could not overcome my energetic frequency, and thus, my attraction to these men who are not good for me.  As time went on, it became clear to me that I must change my own energetic frequency to attract healthier, kinder, and more loving people into my life.

Thus, I began my spiritual journey when my Kundalini energy rose in March of 2011, and I relentlessly committed my efforts to heal my sexual and emotional injuries I sustained as a child and later as an adult.  I understood that I must change who I am to attract who I want into my life. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)


No Longer Escaping


For a long time, I have been escaping from myself and my life.  I ran from place to place and relationship to relationship, while hoping to find peace, happiness, and contentment.  What I did find was myself at the end of each of these attempts. It was amazing that I could not understand why I couldn’t escape my pain and suffering.

Wherever I ran, there I was, and I had no way to hide from myself.  For the first time in my life, I am going toward what I want in my life.  I am no longer unhappy with my life, and trying to find happiness and peace elsewhere.  I finally feel really happy in my life, and I want to share this happiness with others who are more like me.

In my current life, I met a man who writes beautiful music for me, cares for me, is creative, is intelligent, is honest, and is kind to me.  I always wondered why the men in my life never did these things for me, and I have asked for this in my life for a long time.  I also want to continue my current work near my family as I am ready to reconnect with them, and begin a Reiki practice to help others heal.  This is what I am moving towards and not running from my current life.   I don’t know how long anything will last, but it simply doesn’t matter.

Finally, I don’t need to run away from myself as I truly like being with myself, and like who I have become.  Others want to be with me too because I am finally happy, grateful, and live a peaceful life now, and I think others want this for themselves too.  I finally stopped running away, and am moving toward an amazing future. I think I finally found my way in my life! (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

The Feeling of Falling Away


The experience of falling away is a miraculous one.   During my spiritual journey, I have come to realize, it is really the falling away of who we are not.  Those are the layers of pain, hurt, and emotional injuries we have suffered over the course of our soul lives.  This journey of mine is really about losing those parts of me or the armor I developed over the course of many soul lives to protect myself.

As each layer is released or falls away, a truer part of me is revealed.  Sometimes, I don’t recognize myself as I no longer respond in my old ways through fear, resentment, and resistant.  Now, even under difficult or unpleasant situations, I smile at the situation, or laugh at how silly it is when I get bent out of shape about it.

Only in my dreams did I hope to live such a life.  My internal life is always stable and centered even when the rest of my life or the world is in complete chaos.  Those who hurt me no longer are able to hurt me as their actions and behaviors no longer matter to me, and my ego is no longer doing battle with other egos.

I no longer resonate with others who are filled with drama, chaos, anger, resentment, and hurt.  I am just so thankful energy that resonate at different frequencies no longer attract me, and I don’t feel their negative vibrations.  Energy does not lie, and we are how we vibrate. No amount of hiding it can cover up our energetic vibrations even when we pretend to be nice, con others, or lie about our intentions.

This is my new life, and I am smiling all the way.   (Copyright 2016 Awakeningn Journey with All Rights Reserved)





The Miracles of Healing


Last night, I saw this meme and my jaw dropped.  In the past five years as I heal my emotional wounds, this has happened to me repeatedly, and this meme summarizes it perfectly.  This is what I have learned about myslef during these past five years.   We attract certain people who are not good for us because we have emotional wounds that attract these individuals.  As a result, we constantly attract people into our lives who are not healthy or constructive for our lives.  However, once these emotional wounds are healed, the attraction miraculously falls away.

Let me give you an example. Because I was abused sexually and physically as a child by my father, I repeatedly attracted abusers and sex offenders into my life.  I was beatened by boyfriends and sexually assaulted by those I dated.  This became a pattern in my life, and I was completely puzzled by why this was happening to me.  From the age of 20 years old, I desperately sought help to heal these wounds through psychotherapy with little success.

During the past five years,  I then began to seek forms of alternative therapies, including music, art, and dance therapies, emotional release work, yoga, meditation, acupuncture, Chi Gong, Reiki, body work/massage, energy work, breathing and relaxation techniques.   My life began to change as I felt a shift within myself.  It was most apparent when I stopped feeling physical, sexual, and emotional attraction to men who physically, sexually, and emotionally abused and injured me.

I believe that when we heal our emotional wounds, our energy frequency elevates and increases.  When we do this, we stop resonating at the same frequency with those abusers and sex offenders.  They are no longer even on my radar as we no longer resonate or vibrate at the same frequency.  It is the Law of Attraction and Law of Resonance at work under the Universal laws.   May you find healing for a new life! (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

My Graduation


This weekend, I am graduating from this phase of my spiritual work. I am attending a three day Reiki Master Training Class.  After the introduction in this class, we took a break and I went for a walk. During this walk, I heard a voice telling me that this is my graduation so I can move forward onto the next phase of my spiritual work.  I don’t know exactly what that means, but I am excited.

During this class, we received an attunement or placement and ignition process as it is called in this training.  We first began the healing process as we go through a guided meditation with our instructor then we begin to experience healing in the River of Life.  There, I saw myself as a little girl walking through the forest and being cleansed in the river, but I became the river and was part of it.  Then I saw an image of my parents who were dressed in 1920 clothing and of a different race sitting at a train station.  I knew they were saying good-bye to me, and a voice told me to let them go.

During the placement process, we again went through a guided meditation and were allowed to experience ourselves in a light.  During my experience, I became the light and moved in this light through its waves and currents, and felt no physical body.  I felt such utter joy and love while in this light, and believe this is what it’s like to die.  It was the most perfectly joyful and beautiful place, and it’s like returning home.  Then I saw an images of million of faces as far as the eye can see, and I knew they were people who had passed over.  I saw my uncle who had gone missing, and my grandmother who passed many years ago.

I realized in that moment that I am never alone, and my loved ones are always with me.  In this light, I became one wtih all even those who are no longer with us in the physical world.  I had travel to the beyond, and understood that we are not limited by our physical bodies.  One day, I will return home again, and find my loved ones there waiting for me. I will be one with all when I finally return.  (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

The Law of Attraction through Quantum Physics


Spiritual principles now can be explained through modern science.  The Universal Law of Attraction, the concept that like attracts like, has been explained through a division of physics called, “Quantum Physics.”

“The broad category called “physics” encompasses the study of the laws that govern the larger elements of the universe, for example, “gravity, “electromagnetism”, “strong force”, “weak force”, and so on.  But scientists realized that when they get to the small particles of the universe, they seemed to be governed by entirely different rules! What applies to the large particles, didn’t fully apply to the small particles. This study, of the smallest particles, is called ‘Quantum Mechanics.’”

“Science now realizes that in every cell, inside everything, even inanimate objects, there are strings of energy that wobble and wave and vibrate in different patterns, and these strings of energy make up the protons and neutrons of every nucleus. Science first “saw” these strings as one piece, called “quarks”, and awarded the Nobel Prize for the discovery of these “quarks” in 1969, but now realizes that the strings of energy come in two different shapes: a “U’ shape, and a “straight line” shape. The “U” shape imbeds itself into the cell, and this is what tells the cell to turn into a baby’s heart cell, or a baby’s liver cell, or a frog, or a penguin, or a tree! The straight line string wraps itself through the “U” shaped string (and this is a “quark”), through magnetic attraction (of the Electro Magnetic Field), UNTIL YOU, through your thoughts and choice, cause that straight string to fly out through your cells, and further out from your body, and out of your energy field, into the universe, to accomplish something or other!”

“So, literally, your strings obey your thoughts, and fly out to attract strings that are wobbling and wiggling in the same pattern!  Other strings that are wobbling and wiggling in the same frequency and pattern will flock, like a magnet, to coagulate with the other similar strings! Once there is a critical mass of vibrationally matching strings of energy, “it”, whatever it was you were intending,  manifests!  THIS is how your reality manifests! THIS is how the Law of Attraction works! These strings of energy is how it can be said that “God is in everything and everyplace, all at the same time”, and that ‘We are all connected’!”

“When a thought “pops into” your head, it is because YOU are VIBRATING at a frequency equal to the frequency of that thought. If it is a thought that you do not choose to think, and you “cast that thought out”, it will have no creative power! It takes 17 seconds for your thoughts to have creative, attractor power.  We know this because scientists can see the effect upon the brain when a person is under an MRI machine, and the doctors have them talk about various things, they can literally watch different centers of the brain emit different chemicals, which then act upon the body to create different feelings.”

Spiritual laws are not merely unexplained theories or philosophy.  Scientists are now proving these Universal laws through Quantum Physics.

Excerpts from “The Science Behind The Law Of Attraction” by JDETRICK on JUNE 18, 2011.” For the full article see: http://www.goodvibesclinic.com/the-science-behind-the-law-of-attraction

Like Ships in the Night

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One of the main life lessons on our spiritual journey is learning to let go.  It was one of the hardest and most painful life lessons.  In fact, I refused to let go for many lifetimes.  One of the main perceptions I had about myself was that of victim, and held that identity and pain associated with it.

Because of this victim identity I perceived of myself, I was repeatedly victimized first as a child and later as an adult.  I gave off victim energy from my emotional wounds, and attracted those who victimize others.  I am not saying that I deserved this, but I attracted victimhood into my life because this was my energy and perception of myself. Perpetrators can sense a victim in a crowd, and identify their victims prior to perpetration a harm.

Some of the signs perpetrators sense is weakness/vulnerability, low self esteem, need for attention, inability to defend ourselves, and lack of self love.  We all can sense this from others whether we are empaths or not.  Before I healed many of my emotional wounds, I attempted to protect myself by putting up an emotional wall or barrier, but that couldn’t protect me either because I was attracted to that energy as well.

When I began healing my emotional wounds after facing my trauma and darkness, I started to let go of those in my past.  Individuals who injured me simply left my life as if they just vanished.  Initially, I thought it was circumstantial or a coincidence.  Upon reflection, I realized that my energy no longer attracted them, as we vibrate at different frequencies now.  This was achieved through emotional healing and recovery work that I did for five years and also share on my Blogsite Homepage tabs.

It has been miraculous really, and people who hurt us simply vanish from our lives, but that is how vibrational frequency work.  When we vibrate at the same frequency as others, we attract and notice them in our lives.  It is simply quantum physics.  Otherwise, we pass them like ships in the night, without even noticing that they are there. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)


Understanding Vibrational Frequency

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If you engage in spiritual practice then you understand that all matter have vibrational frequency as everything exists as energy, including animate and inanimate objects.  I became aware of energy and their vibrational frequency when my Kundalini energy rose.  With this knowledge, I began to observe my attraction to others, and began reading about how we attract others through vibrational frequency.  In my earlier post, “the Law of Attraction through Quantum Physics,” I posted about vibrational frequency through Quantum Physics, the study of particles on a subatomic level.  Through Quantum Physics, it has been demonstrated that like vibrational energies attract each other.

So what makes up vibrational frequency that cause us to feel attracted to and attract others?   From my observation, vibrational frequency of an individual is a combination of our emotional landscape, karma or our past and present behaviors toward others, and our current feelings and…

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