Gratitude for 2017

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I have much gratitude going into 2017 as there is so much to be grateful for in my life. I am grateful for all the doors that closed in my life and the many situtaions that did not turn out the way I wanted them.  In retrospect, those people, opporutnities, and situations were never meant for me.

What I perceived initially as rejection or abandonment are really serendipity and synchronicity for my life. I did not enter into relationships, did not get job offers, and did not get selected for certain situations.  Because of these missed opportunities, I had better opportunities waiting for me that is perfect for me and meant for me.

When we are occupied with the ego’s need to control outcomes whether they are relationships, careers, job opportunities, or other situations, our lives will constantly feel like a struggle.  We lack abundance, have failed relationships, have unsuccessful careers, and generally fail to move forward.

Our ego does not know what is best for us, but our higher self does.  Many of us still operate in the smaller self or ego so we continue to fight the path that is not meant for us, so our lives continue to feel like a huge uphill battle.

In my life now if something does not work out in the way that I hope, I always say to myself, “This is simply not meant for me. Something better is waiting for me.” I see my life now with a very bright horizon, and everything falling into place like a giant jigsaw puzzle.  I no longer question the why, but simply accept what is meant for me, will come to me. (Copyrigth 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

 

 

Healing the Trifecta

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There are three other members of my immediate family, including my parents and my younger brother.  Because of the abuse and dysfunctions within my family, which I believe is our family karma, I needed to overcome the abuse and dysfunctions of my family, including the roles I played with each member of my family.

About five years ago, I encountered a Kundalini active man who represented my father.  He sexually assaulted me, gave me a sexually transmitted disease, and emotionally manipulated me for my money, although I was not the only woman in this situation.  When I met him, I knew he represented my father, and I think he knew it too as I told him frequently.

Because I wanted to be near him, I applied for a job at the college where he works.  When I arrived at this college, I worked for a supervisor who is very mentally ill, irrational, and emotionally unstable.  When I began working for her, I realized that she represented my mother.

During these five years, I worked to overcome my fears of these two individuals as I was terrified, sad, and felt powerless around them.  I learned to stand up for myself, learned that I am worthy and deserve good things, and stopped giving my power to them.  Almost two years ago, I walked away from this man in March 2015, and during this same month, my supervisor was fired from her job although she was given the opportunity to retire.

Strangely, in March 2015, I hired a new staff member for my office who represents my brother.  He is a codepedent who also suffered childhood abuse in his life, and we share a similar relationship like the one I have with my brother.  During these nearly two years, I trained him for the job in my office.  However, I also knew that as long as I was his supervisor, he would continue to stay as a codependent.  My leaving this college will empower him to become independent.

Recently, I accepted another university job in California, and will be leaving my current college.  I realized that I needed to leave this college, because my job is done here as I have overcome my role with my father, mother, and brother.   My family lives in California, and I am finally ready to be with them as I already have practiced how to be with them.

I have gained self esteem, learned self love, and now am able to stand up for myself without needing their approval or acceptance of me.  It is through these difficult interactions and healing my emotional wounds that will allow me to finally be with my family without becoming a victim again.   Since I am different, my relationships with my family will be different too.  (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

 

The Life of a Light Worker

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I am a light worker, but did not come to acknowledge this until recently.  My life is not like others, and it became clear to me recently that I am not like others.  I am not married, do not have children, and don’t even have a pet.  Although I tried to be like others earlier in my life, I was married and my husband wanted children but we were unable to have our own.  We were in the process of adoption when our marriage did not survive and we terminated the adoption.

I don’t know what my life will be in the future, but for now, I move from place to place serving as a catalyst and reflect back like a mirror to others of who they truly are.  This can be both good and bad as many are not ready for transformation or even a small change.  I scare some as they are frightened by their own reflection in the mirror of what they see. Wherever I go, I have been able to effect miraculous change to my community, or just individuals around me.

I know all that I do in my life is intended to help my world. Now, I am helping sexually assaulted students and minorities students encountering hate.  In the near future, I also will be helping rescue animals and sick people through Reiki.  I even found a new home with the perfect space for a Reiki studio for people with wheel chairs to receive treatment with me.

As I move forward on my spiritual journey, everything I need has been provided for me, and all the pieces are falling miraculously into place. I sold my home and my house closes right when the new job I want begins.  I found the right job for me, a new home, and am meeting new friends even before moving to California.  It is like the road is paved for me, because I found the right path forward.  Don’t get me wrong, I have had to work very hard applying for jobs and researching them, looking for housing, and willing to meet new people.

My higher self is telling me what to do at every step, and I follow her advice and direction on my path forward.  So far, everything she has told me has come true, and all the pieces of the puzzle are falling into place on my journey forward.  I am humbled by all that I have experienced. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All RIghts Reserved)

 

Finding the Light

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I awoke this morning with such gratitude in my heart.  Yesterday, I sold my house, and also got a second interview for a university job I want in California!  There has been so much synchronicity in my life now with each moment of each day.

The couple who bought my home wants to close on a specific date in January.  It just so happens to be the same date the new semester begins at the university where I want to work.  What are the chances of that?

I am listening to my intuition to guide me to the next step of my journey.  The location of this job is perfect as it is about 2 hours from my family with just enough distance for a healthy buffer, but close enough to visit for a weekend or for the holidays.

This next position continues my calling to work with sexually assaulted students as well as protect minority students that is so important now with the changes in the political climate in the United States. I feel so very blessed on my spiritual journey forward, and it seems that I finally found my way out of the darkness into the light. Blessings of light and love to you. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

The Right Path?

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How do you know if you are on the right path for your life? This is how you know. The path comes naturally without great struggle or resistance. You will be chosen for the job that is right for you when you are ready. You will just meet the person who is right for you when you are ready. I am not saying that you don’t need to apply for the job or show up to the interview on time, or that you don’t need to work on relationships.

The things that are meant for us will come to us when we are ready. It will appear through synchronicity.  If you struggle or feel resistance, it is because it is what your ego wants so you try to control it.  The trick is to find acceptance when you don’t get what you want, because it is not meant for you.

This may seem counter-intuitive because we have been taught to go out there and get what you want. What we have control of is giving our best effort and working hard in our work and relationships. It is not to force and control ourselves and others into a job or relationship we “want.”

May you find your path on your journey forward. Sending love to you on this Sunday morning! (Copyright 2016 Awakening with All Rights Reserved)

No Longer Escaping

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For a long time, I have been escaping from myself and my life.  I ran from place to place and relationship to relationship, while hoping to find peace, happiness, and contentment.  What I did find was myself at the end of each of these attempts. It was amazing that I could not understand why I couldn’t escape my pain and suffering.

Wherever I ran, there I was, and I had no way to hide from myself.  For the first time in my life, I am going toward what I want in my life.  I am no longer unhappy with my life, and trying to find happiness and peace elsewhere.  I finally feel really happy in my life, and I want to share this happiness with others who are more like me.

In my current life, I met a man who writes beautiful music for me, cares for me, is creative, is intelligent, is honest, and is kind to me.  I always wondered why the men in my life never did these things for me, and I have asked for this in my life for a long time.  I also want to continue my current work near my family as I am ready to reconnect with them, and begin a Reiki practice to help others heal.  This is what I am moving towards and not running from my current life.   I don’t know how long anything will last, but it simply doesn’t matter.

Finally, I don’t need to run away from myself as I truly like being with myself, and like who I have become.  Others want to be with me too because I am finally happy, grateful, and live a peaceful life now, and I think others want this for themselves too.  I finally stopped running away, and am moving toward an amazing future. I think I finally found my way in my life! (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

My Guides Along My Path

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This morning as I was driving to work, I realized that the men in my life have been my guides on my spiritual journey.  These men taught me many lessons about myself, and brought me to places I never would have gone alone.  These men showed me how to stand up for myself as many abused me, emotionally, physically, and sexually.  Others showed me the world by traveling with me.  Some brought me to places to do my spiritual work.  Others showed me the next step on my journey forward.

For some reason, none of them stay in my life as I move past them after several years.  Maybe it is the nature of guides to point the way, but they do not necessarily travel on the path with us?  I also meet them under unusual circumstances.  For instance, I met my ex-husband in Alaska, and he turned out to live within 6 hours from where I was living at the time.

Three years ago, I met my next guide in Cinque Terra, Italy who shows me that I am finally ready to re-engage with my family after being away for many years. He just happens to live near my family in California.  He is a spiritual man who is an art teacher, painter, sculptor, and musician.   I don’t know if he will remain in my life, or he will be like the others who do not travel forward with me.

In each of these relationships, I needed them to serve as my guide to become the woman I ultimately will become.  Therefore, I have no regrets because without them, I would not have become the woman I am today. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

 

Living the Miracle

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When we begin to heal ourselves, learn to love ourselves, and let go of people and things that no longer serve us, there are miracles and great rewards awaiting us.  Today was this miracle day for me.  For the past several months, my inner voice has been telling me how to proceed.  As a stubborn human being, I saw dreams and visions, but was skeptical about them.

My inner voice has been telling me to sell my house, that I will find a job in California to continue working with sexual assault victims, and that I will build a Reiki practice in California.  She tells me to find a house with a studio space for my Reiki practice and that I will find clients without even advertising because of my genuine wish to help others will bring clients to me.  She tells me that I will have a partner in my life, and I will make peace with my family.

For some time, I wondered if it would come true.  I began just as she advised, by getting certified as a Reiki Master, preparing my  house for sale, and looking for jobs in California.  Well, today I am one step closer to this reality as a job in California materialized that is perfect for me.  The job is just as I had hoped with only additional staffing needed in this office.   The region is affordable for me to live with my income near mountains and a long bike trail for recreation.  It also is one of the best areas to start a small business.  Now, what are the chances of this?

It happened just as I saw in my vision as it appeared on my computer screen today.  I will find the perfect house to rent with a studio space for my Reiki practice, and my life will fall into place just as she tells me.  I am a true believer of miracles now.  Blessed be.  (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

 

 

Through Dreams

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In recent dreams, I have been seeing my future.  It is not my current life of frustration, stress, and disatisfaction with my job.  In my dreams, I live a different life with a companion. I believe dreams are what we hope for ourselves.  It is through dreams that we discover what we really wish and the life we want.

In my dreams, my future is filled with love and healing as I become a full-time healer.  I have my own practice to help others, and there is someone by my side who is my partner. Through these visions, I am being guided to work toward my future.  Last month, I pursued my certification as a Reiki Master.  I also know that I must master energy protection techniques and learning conscious awareness of my own energy and others.

I have begun to practice these techniques so that I can begin to practice Reiki without taking on others’ energy, and also establish my practice.  Dreams are only ideas and visions. In order for dreams to be realized, we must work and put strategic efforts toward manifesting these ideas and visions. In addition to the physical efforts, I also use positive affirmations and thoughts to manifest what I want.

Deep within me, I know my path is bright, and my future will provide me the avenue to serve my purpose in the world.  I will allow myself to flow with this energy, and am patiently allowing my life to unfold.  (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)