My heart is at peace,
In languid night.
Awaiting serenity not far behind.
As I slumber, visions are clear,
My future unfolds,
In my hands I hold.
Fears far away,
No one can harm me,
And no one to tell.
It is not destiny or fate,
For all past hurts, I no longer hate.
The ghost of maiden,
Only an illusion.
Forever free, my own bondage abates,
Onto the horizon, my future awaits.
(Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
I have traveled such a long way on my journey that began many lifetimes ago. Along the way, I have met those who do not understand my journey. As we appear to have taken differing paths, we have conflicts. I am beginning to understand that everyone’s path is different. There are no right or wrong paths, but they twist and winds on its way forward.
It is our egos who insist on being right. Each day, I am letting go of the need to be right. We will all figure out our paths, and live with our own decisions, outcomes, and actions. There should be no judgment, as we are all where we should be in this moment.
Some are ahead of us and some are behind us, but the path is not linear, so they may be traveling on another plane appearing to be the opposite of us. From our perspectives, we appear to be different, but are we? The next time, we judge others remember this:
It’s all in our perspectives. May we honor and respect others through compassion, tolerance, and peace. (Copyright 2015 Spiritual Journey with All Rights Reserved)
Beyond emotional wounds and hurt is this amazing place where the world is synchronized and events result in the highest and perfect for me. I have crossed the threshold into this beyond. The trees look fuller, the grass is greener, the sky is clearer, and I experience heaven on earth. The pain and hurt of the past appear as a glimmer of an old memory like a faded photograph from long ago.
It all seems like a miracle really. My job at the college where I work is becoming the job that I had hoped and imaged when I first applied and was offered this position. Old obstacles are falling away, and allies come to my assistance and support. My new home is warm, inviting, and welcoming to my friends who visit. It is my sanctuary where I replenish, rest, and rejuvenate. My personal life is synchronized in that as I think of others, they appear shortly thereafter, and when I wish for an outcome, it happens shortly after.
I am inviting this light, synchronicity, and readiness into my life now, with amazing results and wonderful outcomes. This is the life that I have dreamed about. When I work hard, I am rewarded. When I love, my love is returned. When I give, I am given. When I support others, I am supported. I believe I am living in my highest now where peace rules my life, and joy is the foundation of each day.
If someone told me that this would be the reward for the hard emotional work of facing my demons and my childhood trauma, I would not have believed it was possible. My world is opened now to countless possibilities, wonder, and awe. May you find your heaven on earth. Blessings of love! (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
Since the rise of my Kundalini energy four years ago, I have had moment when I ask myself, why events have occurred the way they have in my life? Why have I attracted certain people and situations into my life. The answers have always been that I have unhealed parts of me that have attracted certain people and situations to help me resolve and heal my emotional wounds.
In reflecting on my situation, I am learning that I don’t need to know why, but that it just is. Coming to accept this is difficult for the ego. I don’t know why because the answers may not become clear for years to come. In some way, it really doesn’t matter as the time spent with these individuals and situations have strengthened me and shown me what is unhealed in me with such great reality.
My higher self already has shown me how a healthy life with others will feel, and how I will interact with others. She has shown me a partial road map, but I just don’t know where my road will lead. I feel certain that whatever is in my future, it will be in the highest. (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
There is an amazing phenomenon that occurs when we begin to change our behaviors and thoughts that translate to a change in our beliefs. During the last few days, I have been practicing emotional release practice in an attempt to cure my jealousy. When we refuse to act out on our jealousy, our belief system begin to change. It is not about changing others in their behaviors or actions, but changing our own thoughts, behaviors, and beliefs that change our views and perspectives of others and situations.
This is an interesting and amazing phenomenon! There are individuals in my life with whom I have conflicts, but who doesn’t? However, as I begin to heal my wounds, and change my thoughts, behaviors,and beliefs, I am beginning to change my perspective of them and see them differently.
A case in point involves my supervisor who I perceive to create hardships for my job, but recently all that has changed in that I am seeing and perceiving her very differently. I see that she has serious control issues that is really not about me, but about her need for control. Instead of fighting her that is what my ego wants, I am beginning to work through difficulties about her without her involvement.
This process shows that resolution with an individual does not even require the participation of the other. It is really resolution within ourselves about our situations, involving others, or in our relationships. This is quite a revelation for me, as I have been trying to resolve differences with others through compromise, dialogue, and mediation.
I am not saying that communication is unimportant as it is, but there are many circumstances in our lives that communications with others is simply not possible or probable. This is what I have come to understand, and I move forward now with this new perspectives and approach. (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
Recent incidents in my life have shown me that I have jealousy and distrust issues looming large in my life. I do not trust and have jealousy of my romantic partners that resulted from lifetimes of hurt, betrayal, and rejections. Denial and suppression are no longer working in my life now, so I am seeking alternative methods of dealing with my jealousy.
Jealousy is a very destructive emotion, causing discord, conflicts, and chaos in relationships. I know that this destructive emotion is within me that must be healed and released. I have begun Reiki practice to heal the energetic wounds within me in the hopes of resolving this jealousy issues in my life, and found the following article to be very helpful as well. Take a look: http://www.jealousycontrolled.com/how-to-cure-jealousy/. Sending healing love! (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
How very revealing about our emotional state?
Recently, I have come to realize much about myself and the spiritual and emotional healing work that I have been doing. When my Kundalini energy first rose in March 2011, I became acutely aware of being triggered emotionally by most people. After four years of emotional healing work, I have come to realize that I am triggered because of my own emotional wounds within me. It was easier for me to blame those who triggered me for my pain and suffering. However as I heal, I have become aware that I would be triggered emotionally to become upset or distressed while others are not under the same situation.
My coping skill was to run and hide from people, but inevitably when I ran away from one person who triggered me, there would just be another right around the corner. With each layer of healing, I am becoming less and less reactive. However, there are still those in my life who trigger deeper wounds that I have not yet healed particularly in romantic relationship as they trigger deep wounds involving my traumatic childhood.
Another observation is that I accused others of entering my energy field without my permission, and I have come to realize that this energy that I feel is being created by me. When I think about certain people, my energy would reactive differently, and I was really feeling my own energy reacting rather than someone else entering my field without my permission. This revelation has required me to take responsibility for my own energy, and what happens within my own field.
These experiences tell me that I must begin to take responsibility for my pain and suffering and what happens within my own energy field as they are related to the emotional wounds within me. Ironically, these things don’t even have anything to do with the choices we make as it is inevitable that we must interact with others in life. We will be triggered by different people with whom we interact, because we are walking around with these wounds within us. Even when we perceive other’s entering our energy fields, we really are feeling our own energy reacting to a certain situation or person also as a result of our emotional wounds or feelings within.
These revelations have changed my perspective to begin searching for the answers within myself rather than seeking blame or answers externally through others. No true healing will take place as long as we put the focus on the external. May you find true healing in your life. (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
Recently, I decided to explore other avenues of healing. A year ago, I attended a Reiki class to see how I would like it. I had an extraordinary past life memory during the attunement process, but I did not feel ready to explore or share my energy with others at the time.
This time, my experience was very different in that I did not feel resistance or barriers with others as I earlier felt. It all came very naturally to me. When I felt a blockage somewhere in someone I was treating, I could feel it in their energy field, but I also could feel their pain within my field. As I worked on the blockage, I can feel the pain within my body dissipating, and I can feel the energy softening or releasing within their field.
I also sent thoughts of love, encouragement, support, compassion, or whatever that person seemed to need. Because of the intensity of the process, I would take short breaks in between treatments. Many stated that they felt better after treatment with me, that was a surprise to me as I have never practiced Reiki before.
I also received a treatment from the Reiki master who held my head in his hands. At which time, I went immediately into a meditative state. During this treatment, I felt a massive download of information from the Universe while having an out of body experience as I floated above the sky looking down at the town we were in and the building we were in. It was the most restorative and peaceful experience.
I believe that I was given this wonderful experience as my intentions are for my own healing and the healing of others. I feel ready now to share my healing energy as I have healed sufficiently myself, and learned how to love myself. Now, I am able to give love to others. Sending you healing love! (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)