When we face trauma or abuse as children, our emotional growth becomes stunted and we become stuck at the age of that trauma or abuse. My abuse and trauma began when I was eight years old. So for most of my life until recently, I have been at the emotional age of eight.
The trouble was that I was unaware that I was only eight years old emotionally, since I had nothing to compare myself to, and was not awakened to recognize what was happening to me. Therefore, for most of my life, I operated under this emotional immaturity without recognizing it. My behavior was defensive, I lied to get out of trouble, I never wanted to take responsibility for my actions, I remained a victim blaming others for my life, and I was always afraid and anxious.
As a child and into adulthood, I suffered ulcers, stress, back pain, body twitches, head aches, and other stress related symptoms. I took medication to cope with anxiety and depression, and my life was just a balancing act of getting through my day. My life was very difficult, stressful, unhappy, and full of drama.
After I began my spiritual journey in March 2011, my life began to change. Immediately after releasing my first layer of pain and hurt that is anger and rage, my physical symptoms began to lessen. My back pain, ulcer pain, and body twitches lessened. I also stopped taking medication for my anxiety and depression.
Emotional pain that we hold within us will destroy us if untreated, just like physical pain and illness. Over time, we will become physically ill due to all the unresolved emotional hurt and stress that we endure and tolerate. Healing our emotional wounds is our way to well being and peace in our lives. Blessings, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)