Resolving Conflicts from Within

11119819_555039484639341_7434152282124245161_n (1)There is an amazing phenomenon that occurs when we begin to change our behaviors and thoughts that translate to a change in our beliefs.  During the last few days, I have been practicing emotional release practice  in an attempt to cure my jealousy.  When we refuse to act out on our jealousy, our belief system begin to change. It is not about changing others in their behaviors or actions, but changing our own thoughts, behaviors, and beliefs that change our views and perspectives of others and situations.

This is an interesting and amazing phenomenon!  There are individuals in my life with whom I have conflicts, but who doesn’t? However, as I begin to heal my wounds, and change my thoughts, behaviors,and beliefs, I am beginning to change my perspective of them and see them differently.

A case in point involves my supervisor who I perceive to create hardships for my job, but recently all that has changed in that I am seeing and perceiving her very differently.  I see that she has serious control issues that is really not about me, but about her need for control.  Instead of fighting her that is what my ego wants, I am beginning to work through difficulties about her without her involvement.

This process shows that resolution with an individual does not even require the participation of the other. It is really resolution within ourselves about our situations, involving others, or in our relationships.  This is quite a revelation for me, as I have been trying to resolve differences with others through compromise, dialogue, and mediation.

I am not saying that communication is unimportant as it is, but there are many circumstances in our lives that communications with others is simply not possible or probable.  This is what I have come to understand, and I move forward now with this new perspectives and approach.  (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

How to Cure Jealousy


Recent incidents in my life have shown me that I have jealousy and distrust issues looming large in my life.  I do not trust and have jealousy of my romantic partners that resulted from lifetimes of hurt, betrayal, and rejections.  Denial and suppression are no longer working in my life now, so I am seeking alternative methods of dealing with my jealousy.

Jealousy is a very destructive emotion, causing discord, conflicts, and chaos in relationships.  I know that this destructive emotion is within me that must be healed and released. I have begun Reiki practice to heal the energetic wounds within me in the hopes of resolving this jealousy issues in my life, and found the following article to be very helpful as well.  Take a look:  Sending healing love! (Copyright 2015 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

Accepting Loss and Taking Back Power

My most recent work to accept the losses in my life has allowed me to take back power in my life. I have suffered losses in my life that I had difficulty accepting. The two major ones are the loss of love from my father and mother.  With these losses of love in my life, I suffered terribly because I did not receive healthy love from them, since they were unable to return such love. I continued to hope somehow that they would change, and I would eventually then receive this love from them. This is both unrealistic and unlikely. Our hopes and dreams of receiving this love are what causes us to suffer. We continue to yearn and wish for this love that will simply never materialize.

When we have failed to received healthy love from our parents, we continue to seek this everywhere we go, hoping for a different result with others. When we are able to come to this realization, and recognize that we may never receive this love from our father or mother, then we free ourselves from the bondage of suffering.  When we come to this awareness, then we begin to give this healthy love to ourselves that we needed so desperately.

Because we can only change ourselves, and cannot change others, it is only through self love that we are able to take back power in our lives. That power is knowing that this self love can never be taken away from us. It will remain with our souls into eternity. Blessings from my heart, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Transmuting Kundalini Sexual Energy


Kundalini energy is sexual energy released when our Kundalini energy rises.  When Kundalini energy first rises from our sacrum, the sexual energy is very intense. It almost feels like sexual addiction, and we feel this urgent compulsion to release this sexual energy constantly.  After raising my Kundalini, my energy felt very sexual vibrating mainly in my root chakra.

The recent changes in my emotional landscape from my emotional release practice resulted in a transmuting my Kundalini energy from sexual energy to love energy.  Now, my energy field is very stable and quiet, and the energy feels very loving vibrations in my heart, or crown chakras.

Please see on my Blogsite tab under “Emotional Release Practice” for details. I believe that once we engage in ascension work, we learn self love and unconditional love transmuting our sexual energy to love energy.  When we are able to love ourselves, we then are able to love others. Sex or lust is not love, but is a fo rm of possession, dependency, and sometimes even aggression.  Sex or lust is needing to take from another, while love is giving to another.

Prior to changing our emotional landscapes, there are things that we can do to transmute sexual energy every day, such as exercise, creating art, playing music, listening to quieting music, dancing, long walks in nature, yoga, meditation, cooking, writing, journaling, and anything creative.  Sexual energy that is transmuted is known to create brilliance and genius.  Sending love and light!  (Copyright 2013 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

Communion with Others through Nonresistance


On my return trip from Italy, I stopped through Copenhagen, Denmark to learn about the culture and people, and for the Copenhagen Jazz Festival.  I brought warm weather from Italy with me.  Ironically, I met a Danish couple from Copenhagen on the hiking trail in Italy who helped me, and told me the weather hopefully would be sunny and warm when I arrived.

As I traveled in Denmark that is the size of a small state in US, the people are mild mannered, and polite. When I reached Copenhagen, I attempted to schedule my day with no success. I then decided to get a taxi cab and wing it.  I asked the  taxi driver where I should go, and he took me to the canals.
I found a boat tour of the canals of Copenhagen, saw the sights, ate wonderful food, and shopped among the Danish. I found them to be very private, but when approached they are helpful and kind. The Danish do not confront each other, but with a smile, they are able to convey displeasure.  For example, a man at the train station was about to dispose his trash on the ground.  I merely smiled at him and he was aware of my displeasure, and then took away his trash. Copenhagen is very clean for a major city, and the Danish take pride in their clean environment and ride their bicycles everywhere.
At one of the jazz venues, I met a father and daughter.  I asked for information and struck up a conversation about Danish politics, the environment, natural disasters, and global issues. Both are very educated, the man is a retired school teacher and his daughter is a copywriter.  Although, both are educated,they didn’t understand how Americans can live with natural disasters such as tornadoes, hurricanes, landslides, earth quakes, and wild fires.
I explained that people come to accept the conditions they must live in, and when they are no longer able to tolerate these conditions, they will relocate.  Humans have lived this way for thousands of years and we have been able to adapt to our environment, and we will continue to do so through our climate change that we are now experiencing globally. Blessings to our world, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Losing Ego and Fear


I arrived in Milan by train.  After checking into the hotel, I headed out to see the Duomo or Catholic Church in the Plaza del Duomo.  After dinner and sightseeing, I became lost walking in the confusing streets of Milan. 

In the past, my fears of the unknown prevented me from walking alone particularly in a strange city, and from traveling alone.  Since practicing releasing my ego, my perceived fears are gone, although I do still take practical precautions and use my intuition to guide me.

 Although I was walking alone, I stopped to ask for directions always looking for two or more people for safety reasons. As I had wanted to listen to live music and could not since many venues were closed due to summer holiday in Italy that is July and August, I walked onto an  outdoor rock concert.  I danced and sang along with the Italians, laughing and enjoying myself and feeling so grateful for the synchronicity in my life.

 As I attempted to return to my hotel, I got lost several more times, but was guided by wonderfully helpful and warm Italians along the way.  Even while walking alone late at night on the streets of Milan, I was never frightened.  I truly felt protected trusting my higher self and using my Intuition to guide me. Blessings and light,  Brooke (Copyright 2031 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Living Beyond Dependency


Dependency is emotional attachment we begin to develop as infants. We become attached to our parents for survival.  Our egos begin to attach to those who we identify as our protectors and providers.  We learn this through human conditioning.  Even for healthy adults, we separate from our parents emotionally and physically in order to become healthy adults and parents ourselves.

For those of us who experienced childhood abuse by our parents, however, this dependency is distorted and we begin to develop conditioning and addiction to abusive, hurtful, and painful behaviors from ourselves and others.  These behaviors are then projected onto our adult relationships with others because these behaviors feel familiar.

Since I experienced childhood abuse, my adult relationships also involved abuse and violence that I sought out in my relationships because they felt familiar and it felt like the distorted love that my parents gave me.  As an adult, I became addicted to pain, abuse, and suffering, and it was only after I began to release my ego who identified with this pain, abuse, and suffering that I have been able to leave these dysfunctional dependency relationships.

I began to realize that dependency (attachment), judgment (the need to be right or better), and  resistance (the need to control) are all works of the ego.  If we do not release our egos, we will always operate under these premises, and will continue to suffer in our lives. May you find peace from suffering, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

My Stages of Emotional Healing through Releasing the Ego


During the past two years, I have gained some insights into emotional healing process.  After the rise of my Kundalini, I experienced many energy blocks in my chakras and energy field resulting in physical pains and discomforts.  During these two years, I worked feverishly to heal my emotional landscape in order to release these energy blocks. Many of this recovery process corresponded with the maturity and unveiling of my higher self through releasing ego.

The first stage involved realization and acknowledging of my emotional landscape. This involved identifying my emotional, physical, and sexual abuse that I experienced in my childhood.  As an adult, this pattern of abuse continued in my life that I acknowledged and admitted to myself.  As s result of my emotional history, I developed destructive behaviors, judgments, and thoughts about myself and others.

During the second stage of emotional recovery, I began to change my perception about myself, including how I perceived my appearance,talents, and life through self love or unconditional love.   I became more compassionate toward myself, and as a result, I became less critical and judgmental, and more compassionate towards others, also known as nonjudgment.  My self esteem improved and I began to like myself more and more.

During the third stage, I began the practice of detachment or nonattachment where I no longer continued dependency relationships.  I began to give up co-dependency relationships by leaving those relationships behind.   Dependency is when we need others to survive in the world.  We know we are no longer emotionally dependent upon others, when they leave us or cannot meet our expectations, but we are not angry or upset at them.

In this fourth stage, I am in the process of learning surrender or nonresistance.  I practice living without expectations of outcome with others and events.  I finally understand that the more I resist, the more I suffer.  I come to accept my life as it is without trying to control every aspect of my life, and I have peace by allowing the Universe to take care of the rest.

I use emotional release practice, Observing Ego practice, and Accessing the Higher Self as my main methods of healing my emotional landscape. This can be found on my Blogsite homepage if you wish to try these practices.

During each of these stages that I experienced, I released more and more of my ego during each stage.  I am reacting less to things I cannot control in my life, I give myself compassion when I fail, and I do not expect anything from others, but graciously accept what others give me.

These may not be the stages of emotional healing for you, or in the same manner, but I hope you find this helpful.  May you find emotional healing within, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

The Power of Ego


In the teachings of the Christian Church, there is reference to evil or Satan.  I believe that under Jesus Christ’s teachings, the reference to this evil is the actions of the ego within each of us.  We have within each of us the Divine and the Ego. If we observe evil or harm in this world, it is the actions of humans through fears created by our egos.  There also is great fear of Kundalini by the Christian Church, associating Kundalini Spirit with evil and related to Satan.   The serpent depicted in the Garden of Eden is the symbol for Kundalini.

I do not believe that ego is inherently evil.  It is the actions of man who act upon our fears created by ego that are harmful and hurtful to others.  The ego even creates justifications for the our actions, using our minds to convince ourselves and even using spiritual principles to justify hurtful and harmful actions to others calling it Divine purpose, spiritual love, or Divine plan.  This is exactly what the Christian Church proclaimed during the crusades, and Muslim extremists stated about the 9/11 bombings in the U.S.

If we do not release our egos, our actions will be driven by our egos, and these actions are self serving, and for self gain.  When we are able to act beyond our egos through our higher selves then our actions serve others and will never harm others.  It is simple through observing the actions of others that we can see the truth.  Do their actions hurt others?  Are their actions intended to control others?  Are their actions intended to serve themselves rather than the greater good?

The world is simple, but ego is complicated.  We just need to open our eyes to see the truth.  Blessings to our world. (Copyright 2013 Soul Awakening with All Rights Reserved)